Wasted Space

I know it’s cold but I will loop around the block

Mannequin in a window, broken mirror on the sidewalk

And do you know I see your face carved in every block of ice

Slip off the curb into your mouth rub my legs from your eyes

I don’t even want your love just a body is enough

just want something to get by

Let me hold you down this one last time

I’ll let you leave me, I’ll let you lie

I got wasted space to lay beside me every night

and I don’t wanna be alone

My hands are stained by citrus, they could rub the marble raw

and we felt so right in summer, us against the hum

and do you know I see your face at 2 in the morning stuck in bed,

you’re the dent in the mattress

you’re the existential dread

I don’t even want your love, just a body is enough

just want something to get by

You got the best part of knowing me

I’m a russian doll of who I used to be

hollowed out and you’re better off without my need

I’m pissed of and sorry to ask you to comfort me

Different Night

It’s better he doesn’t show, convince me I don’t want to talk

Bad news on vacation, rip the cord from the wall, let him walk

convince me, say it’s all good fun

And I’ll tell all my friends we had such a good run

Smiling though it’s haunted, it’s the way I’m wanted to act

Swallow ramblings point em at the mirror, midst the toilet shards of tact

I want you to feel bad because I do

And I don’t know how to make it clear to you

Now the party’s almost over

getting hard laughs and fingernail smolder

it’s the best part of a different night

cause I’m falling again and sucked into these lights

I know I didn’t ask but I want you to be on my side

sometimes I want so bad it’s not a kiss, baby, it’s a bite

I want you to love because I do

and I don’t know how to make it clear to you

Sunday

Walking the coast on light conversation

He talks about home just as I'm leaving

Gone to a girlhood of grey summertime

Quiet retreat to the back of my mind

Squinting into late afternoon highway

Stop for coladas, I'm trying life his way

Letting go is such a relief

Trust the waves rolling behind me

Behind me

When will I grow up?

I just want to be someone I could love

Just want to pull back my hair and stand in the wind

Let it all out, let it all in

Staying up in the orange light of my room

Writing a song, trying to get you

Beach town boy bringing change

Find new light in the pale of my face

My face

Not Love

I want to feel you somehow next to me

breath stains my shoulder, pull me in, lover boy wannabe

You’re saddled up with all my doubt

but I like having you around

I think it’s time I offer up my palms

box up past regrets and feelings of harm

it’s so warm here by your side

simple, sweet and worth the ride

No it’s not love, but it’s enough

No it’s not love, just want to wash him off

and I want it, I want it all, I want it, I want it all

I kissed cold comfort when we plunged into the sea

head underwater got you tugging at my knees

the ocean’s carved out half this land

she left her imprint on the man

When I wake up at 6 am you linger from a dream I had

snow up to my knees in LA, too dark to see but you call my name

And I like the feeling of you here, I like the feeling of you here