Wasted Space
I know it’s cold but I will loop around the block
Mannequin in a window, broken mirror on the sidewalk
And do you know I see your face carved in every block of ice
Slip off the curb into your mouth rub my legs from your eyes
I don’t even want your love just a body is enough
just want something to get by
Let me hold you down this one last time
I’ll let you leave me, I’ll let you lie
I got wasted space to lay beside me every night
and I don’t wanna be alone
My hands are stained by citrus, they could rub the marble raw
and we felt so right in summer, us against the hum
and do you know I see your face at 2 in the morning stuck in bed,
you’re the dent in the mattress
you’re the existential dread
I don’t even want your love, just a body is enough
just want something to get by
You got the best part of knowing me
I’m a russian doll of who I used to be
hollowed out and you’re better off without my need
I’m pissed of and sorry to ask you to comfort me
Different Night
It’s better he doesn’t show, convince me I don’t want to talk
Bad news on vacation, rip the cord from the wall, let him walk
convince me, say it’s all good fun
And I’ll tell all my friends we had such a good run
Smiling though it’s haunted, it’s the way I’m wanted to act
Swallow ramblings point em at the mirror, midst the toilet shards of tact
I want you to feel bad because I do
And I don’t know how to make it clear to you
Now the party’s almost over
getting hard laughs and fingernail smolder
it’s the best part of a different night
cause I’m falling again and sucked into these lights
I know I didn’t ask but I want you to be on my side
sometimes I want so bad it’s not a kiss, baby, it’s a bite
I want you to love because I do
and I don’t know how to make it clear to you
Sunday
Walking the coast on light conversation
He talks about home just as I'm leaving
Gone to a girlhood of grey summertime
Quiet retreat to the back of my mind
Squinting into late afternoon highway
Stop for coladas, I'm trying life his way
Letting go is such a relief
Trust the waves rolling behind me
Behind me
When will I grow up?
I just want to be someone I could love
Just want to pull back my hair and stand in the wind
Let it all out, let it all in
Staying up in the orange light of my room
Writing a song, trying to get you
Beach town boy bringing change
Find new light in the pale of my face
My face
Not Love
I want to feel you somehow next to me
breath stains my shoulder, pull me in, lover boy wannabe
You’re saddled up with all my doubt
but I like having you around
I think it’s time I offer up my palms
box up past regrets and feelings of harm
it’s so warm here by your side
simple, sweet and worth the ride
No it’s not love, but it’s enough
No it’s not love, just want to wash him off
and I want it, I want it all, I want it, I want it all
I kissed cold comfort when we plunged into the sea
head underwater got you tugging at my knees
the ocean’s carved out half this land
she left her imprint on the man
When I wake up at 6 am you linger from a dream I had
snow up to my knees in LA, too dark to see but you call my name
And I like the feeling of you here, I like the feeling of you here