Big Time

I wanna sink my teeth in

Less afraid of the part where this all ends

just of never getting through to you

enough to begin

Toss me the keys from your window

I can’t catch for shit but I like being in this world

I bet you like big chew

And can’t judge my horoscope

I want big love, big time

And I’m getting closer every night

I’m sorry to back you in a corner

You make me feel insane and like being difficult

Is it worth cracking you out of

the charming asshole?

But gullible as I am I’ll follow

And if you turn out hollow

remind me your love of Coldplay corniness

To make me less miserable

Kurt Cobain mascot’s tongue in my mouth

fleeing the dance floor to lay on your couch

melodramatic, pour over a detail

I wanna know your secrets, get stuck inside the whale

And “hey I’m just kidding” is your favorite line

just surface enough to waste my time

but the big one’s getting closer

every night

Phantom Thumb

Hey, yeah it's me just on my walk

Everything's fine

Just a few weeks, I'm sure these roots

will materialize

I don't miss being his girlfriend

I just want another person to share my life

Like stealing cigarettes from strangers

That I don't smoke and I watch her

Running down the boardwalk into the night

Going, going, gone

Stick out like a phantom thumb

Isn't anything sacred?

Am I just a pit in your plum?

Spit out at life

I don't mind being a sidecar

Can we paint flames down the side?

You remind me of a time when I was more alive

Where the hell is the train?

It's so weird in LA. Is Jersey really better?

Maybe Johnny was right

I'm haunted by those sickly summers

I don't want to be a fuck up

I just want to make something of my life

Like chucking rubber in a fire

And he watches me and I'm 16

Singing him lullabies at night, his eyes

Going, going, gone

Different Night

It’s better he doesn’t show, convince me I don’t want to talk

Bad news on vacation, rip the cord from the wall, let him walk

convince me, say it’s all good fun

And I’ll tell all my friends we had such a good run

Smiling though it’s haunted, it’s the way I’m wanted to act

Swallow ramblings point them at the mirror, amidst the toilet shards of tact

I want you to feel bad because I do

And I don’t know how to make it clear to you

Now the party’s almost over

getting hard laughs and fingernail smolder

it’s the best part of a different night

cause I’m falling again and sucked into these lights

I know I didn’t ask but I want you to be on my side

sometimes I want so bad it’s not a kiss, baby, it’s a bite

I want you to love because I do

and I don’t know how to make myself stand out to you

Wasted Space

I know it’s cold but I will loop around the block

Mannequin in a window, broken mirror on the sidewalk

And do you know I see your face carved in every block of ice

Slip off the curb into your mouth rub my legs from your eyes

I don’t even want your love just a body is enough

just want something to get by

Let me hold you down this one last time

I’ll let you leave me, I’ll let you lie

I got wasted space to lay beside me every night

and I don’t wanna be alone

My hands are stained by citrus, they could rub the marble raw

and we felt so right in summer, us against the hum

and do you know I see your face at 2 in the morning stuck in bed,

you’re the dent in the mattress

you’re the existential dread

I don’t even want your love, just a body is enough

just want something to get by

You got the best part of knowing me

I’m a russian doll of who I used to be

hollowed out and you’re better off without my need

I’m pissed of and sorry to ask you to comfort me

Sunday

Walking the coast on light conversation

He talks about home just as I'm leaving

Gone to a girlhood of grey summertime

Quiet retreat to the back of my mind

Squinting into late afternoon highway

Stop for coladas, I'm trying life his way

Letting go is such a relief

Trust the waves rolling behind me

Behind me

When will I grow up?

I just want to be someone I could love

Just want to pull back my hair and stand in the wind

Let it all out, let it all in

Staying up in the orange light of my room

Writing a song, trying to get you

Beach town boy bringing change

Find new light in the pale of my face

My face